drawing in the park

it´s nice and sunny in Madrid, really springlike. 

so I went sketching a bit in the Retiro Park on sunday!

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hace un tiempo de primavera en Madrid, con mucho sol. 

así que el domingo me fui a dibujar un poco en el Retiro.

ambivalent feelings on painting

what I most would love right now is to have several months of time only for painting! To explore more my art, to get better, to grow... but reality is so different...and while on one day there is nothing I want more in the world than to paint, on the other day I don´t want to know anything about art and can´t imagine to ever hold a brush in my hands again! Why do I feel so? I know that the desire to paint always comes back, but I´d like to be so much more constant and prolific. These ambivalent feelings make it so difficult to stay motivated. Sometimes I am moody, lazy or super PMS-ing (like the past week), feeling like a complete quitter.
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lo que más me gustaría ahora es tener varios meses solo para pintar. Explorando más mi arte, mejorar, crecer...pero la realidad es tan diferente...¡y mientras un día no quiero hacer otra cosa que pintar, al día siguiente ya no quiero saber nada del arte y no puedo imaginar de volver a coger un pincel en la vida! ¿Por qué lo siento así? Sé que el deseo de pintar siempre vuelve, pero me gustaría ser mucho más constante y productiva. Estos sentimietos ambivalentes lo hacen tan difícil de seguir motivado. A veces soy tan malhumorada y espesa, o superafectada por el síndrome premenstrual (como toda esta semana pasada practicamente), sintiéndome un auténtico fracaso. 

Annabel Emson

Annabel Emson (b.1975, London, United Kingdom) received an MFA from The Slade School of Art in London and a BA from Cheslea College of Art & Design. Emson lives and works in London.
Emson’s paintings are experimential performances on the relationship between the inner psychological terrain and the outside materialist world; through mark making and the language of paint she creates doorways into autobiographical landscapes that allow her to visually inhabit both worlds. Her paintings visualize bursts of energy and movement. The work addresses fundamental thoughts on communion and belonging; creating an intimate common bond with her viewer; they are still, silent open relationships through which she is dialoguing.

text taken from here:
http://www.mariancramer.com/exhibitions/annabel-emson/